what you will

I have some things to do that are related to school, however, I have typed half a paragraph and I am already sick and bored of it. I just don’t want to do work. Or study. I kind of want to imagine myself doing work, but when I actually get started, I can’t concentrate.

I really dislike thinking about school work, and generally anything that requires a lot of effort. School. UGHHH. Only one thing has made me a little more happy is the fact that I am on the school table tennis B team, almost A, but I highly doubt that I will be in the A team due to the fact that there are older, more experienced players in the current line-up. I should work my way from the bottom to experience the tournaments first. I have practice tomorrow. That means, I should recharge, and then do some more work… more thinking…
Anyway, see ya’ll next time I write!

missed it

Today, I missed the bus on the way home, so I walked home. It takes the same amount of time anyway. I walked past my elementary school. I think my shoes were too flat, and that caused my feet to hurt.

Anyway, at school, we have this thing called a Science Fair. I have barely started, and I already don’t like it. Unlike the others; they say that they hate it; but I just don’t like it. Like, really don’t like it. I have table tennis team practice tomorrow. And P.E. before that; it’s block 4. At least it’s basketball. I mean, if it doesn’t drain the energy out of me, table tennis might. Another thought, I have to go home after that. I have to take the busss. Or call home. Idk. I might take the bus anyway.

Tomorrow is Tuesday. I still dislike Tuesdays. Dammit. Well, I don’t like any other day. Except… Thursday and Friday. Unfortunately, time isn’t moving any faster for me to skip a couple of days. Dammit. Anyway, I should organize my stuff for tomorrow, so goodnight! ((:

2017 New Year’s Resolutions!

Hey guys, Happy New Year! 2016 has come to an end. That means 2017 has started, and there must be a post on some goals for the rest of the year. Well, without further ado, the resolutions!

  1. Try to get my creativity out in different ways (drawing, writing, idk what else).
  2. Focus (whether it be around people, at school, or when playing sports).
  3. Less use of my phone.
  4. Sleep at more appropriate times.
  5. Try to keep the desk organized for as long as possible and clean every once in a while.
  6. Organize time for everything; have a plan. 🙂
  7. Spend more time with the child. GABEYY.

Well, that seems to be it. There isn’t as much as I thought. I guess 7 is a good number to stop at as I am not used to seeing the year as 2017. 2016 was fun, uneventful, and strangely turned pretty bad at the end.
School starts in 2 days. I don’t think I’m very excited for it to begin. I should get back into my school sleeping schedule. However, I don’t think I’m getting very close to getting my sleep schedule back to normal anytime soon. I just can’t fall asleep at normal times.

I noticed that recently I’ve been painting a whole bunch of random things. Is it so that I have something to do? I do… but I don’t really want to. ((:

I hope everyone has a good 2017! Happy New Year again!

idk what

Today I realized I was actually a little sick. A little bit of coughing and a little bit of a gross nose. I had ping pong today. We had a tourney for my group lesson. I got 4th. Last time we had a tourney thing, I got 2nd. I wasn’t really into it today. I actually noticed that I was not into the game at all. Wow. I noticed something. I also realized that I hate it when people have expectations of me. I heard another student in my group lesson talk about me as “that girl that beats everyone” right after my match that I lost (and started my losing streak). I won 6 matches and lost 4 matches. I hate expectations, even if they’re mine. I want to swear. Like really loudly. But not right now because my throat hurts.

I really like this drama series’ OST. It’s like, half depressing and half satisfying. I don’t know. I’m really boring. I haven’t written something creative and posted in a while. It’s probably because I hate getting criticized by certain people. I’m not blaming anyone, but it’s just my personal feeling. I think I just hate the way I do things.

It snowed more today. I played outside with my brother for like an hour. We made a very little snowman. It had a red frisbee for a hat. Then after we made it, we went inside for hot chocolate (with waaay too much powder). I went out after it stopped snowing as hard, and the frisbee-hat had a layer of snow on top of it. It didn’t topple over. Impressive. Better than me. 😉

I will now proceed to write my novel. A personal one. Not for any particular reason. Yeah. See ya when I’m not super sick or sad.

New Year’s Resolutions for 2016: Review

This is also rather early. I’m halfway through December and I’m thinking about this. Why did I set so many goals? Many of those goals can be accomplished in longer periods of time. Let’s see what January 1st, 2016 Gloria thinks about the year.

  1. Don’t ask so many questions; be more independent and use my brain.
    To be honest, there are different situations in which asking questions are good.
  2. Try not to be so hesitant.
    I’m trying. Trying not to cry… ;u;
  3. TRY to be more neat and organized.
    I guess I’m trying. Depends on what time of year.
  4. Have more patience…
    Yeah. We’re getting good at that.
  5. Stay the same in personality, but be quieter when appropriate.
    I think I took this way too seriously. Some people think I’m scary for not talking or expressing any emotion. Whoops.
  6. EYES!! Keep my eyesight the same.
    I don’t know where I am going with this. Why did I even bring this up?
  7. Try not to be scared of new things and other things.
    “Other things.”
  8. Get better at talking in front of people.
    I can’t. I mean, I’ll talk really fast…
  9. Improve printing.
    Some still say it’s bad, however, I see a difference in my writing.
  10. Use time wisely.
    I keep rewording this differently every year. This might be on the list for 2017, but I don’t know.
  11. Concentrate better, find a strategy to concentrate without music.
    I don’t know about this one. I think I can only focus on one thing at a time. To be honest, I don’t even know if the music helps me, but it distracts me from other people.
  12. Have more self-esteem.
    Sure!

I think every year, I get more sarcastic and less motivated to complete or even try to achieve my goals. It’s fun though, to set some goals. I noticed that even when I was little, I enjoyed writing stories; but they always ended up going on and on, or they just ended. Now, I might write some stories during breaks. Who knows. Anyway, in about half a month, I will write some New Year’s Resolutions. Why is it the end of 2016 already? I just got used to it being at the top of my papers.

scone, biscuit, croissant, bread, bun

The title is related to a conversation I had at school today at lunch. There was this bread thing with chocolate chips, and it was shaped like a scone. It looked like a scone, yet when people ate it, it was “flakey”, or soft. Yeah, it was a very intellectual and deep conversation.

We got our report cards today. I have 7 A’s and 1 B. The B is from P.E. I mean, no one is good at every sport in the world. Yesterday I did an English Test. Tomorrow I have a French Test/Quiz that I am not prepared for in one area: PREPOSITIONS of “les parties du corps”. I haven’t memorized some of the parts. I have memorized ones that I have learned previously, and ones that are new but are simpler to remember. I will study tomorrow. Morning. Yeah.

Today I had Science, and I now have another assignment. I have to make a comic about how the immune system works with an example. It’s pretty simple and easy, it’s just it may take a while to complete. I dunno. In Math we did a whole bunch of worksheets on mean, median, and mode. On shoe sizes. It was… informative. In Tech Ed, I made the wheels of this styrofoam car that the class is required to make. I am making a… SHARK. I don’t know, but it was a rather random idea. Probably won’t go very far. Like me. 😉

As there is still school tomorrow, I must sleep properly. It’s only 10 though… Ahh.. What do I do. I will get off the computer. Sounds good. Well then, see ya! Until I decide to write something interesting… Or maybe just to fill the sidebar up with months of the year. 🙂

irregular

I’m like really screwed right now. So, at school we have this schedule divided into two days. On Day 1, there are four classes, and on Day 2 there are four other classes. I carry two different binders depending on the day. Today happened to be a Day 2, and tomorrow is Day 1. Yesterday was a Day 1 and I think I lost my binder for Day 1 yesterday. Either I lost it on the bus or I lost it at school. I have a calculator, a USB flash drive, like 2 notebooks with notes in them, math, science, tech ed work in it, and lots of other papers. On the outside I may seem a little lazy about it, but on the inside, it’s like… I don’t know what to do. How to get it back. Also, I am slightly worried about what happened to it, but who wants grade eight homework with my name on it. There was homework in there that is due tomorrow. This is so great. I stress about talking too. Recently, I’ve been nervous about pretty much everything. Like literally. I’m gonna cry.

I think I cried about reading out loud to a class a piece of writing I did. About… doing lots of homework. Hahaha. So childish. But I wanna cry right now. I have something stuck in my heart. Not stuck, like… foggy. Something foggy in my heart. Sometimes my heart feels weird after I run 400 m. When I play a game of table tennis, I get really really (more than before) nervous before each point. It causes me to rush, and it is currently my only problem according to my coaches. AAAAAHHHHGHGHhhh. Can I like do something good? I haven’t done anything worth praising yet. I saw a bunch of my marks, and many of them were lower than I thought. But it makes sense. I didn’t do very well on tests. I hate tests. What do I like. Oh my godd. I don’t know anymore. I know classmates that think I am smart so they ask me for answers or help with their work, but I have severe problems in my head. There is something wrong. When I lost my binder, I couldn’t even remember if I brought it onto the bus or not. If I left it at school or took it with me. If I got off the bus with it or not.

Is my heart and head messed up? It’s getting late, so I think I’ll have to prepare for tomorrow, and explaining my situation. See ya. (:

underestimate

Can I have a really long break? I have lots of work to do, but I seem to procrastinate for extended periods of time. I don’t want to do any of this. I know I have to do my work. I have a stomachache.

Earlier this year, I thought that grade eight would be a little harder than grade seven. Well, it’s not any more difficult, it’s just more in a short amount of time. I forgot about the fact that every school day is busy. Maybe I underestimated high school because of how my sister explained her day. It’s not her fault, it’s just my interpretation and visualization of high school. Haha.

Let’s list some things that I know are coming up that I should do, but I’m not. Also, stress. 🙂 I mean, I’m just gonna list random things that… are happening.

  1. Science Fair Proposal: I’m writing the entire thing, but it’s a partner project. I wish I did Honours now.
  2. Art Project: I haven’t even started on thinking about. So I’m not going to think about it.
  3. Ping Pong Tournament: The registration cut-off date is tomorrow. I don’t really want to do it. I should talk to my coach. I don’t think I’m going to do it if I’m this stressed about it.
  4. Ping Pong @ School: I mean, it’s a new thing-a-majig to me, so I don’t know what is going on at the try-outs and practices. I’m really awkward. Especially when explaining and teaching.
  5. School In General: Can I like not go? I don’t really enjoy school. It’s too busy. I don’t like group/partner projects. I dislike many things. Including my work. And myself.

I need to go to PING PONG PRACTICE now. So, yeah, see ya next time!!!!

ohohoho tryouts

Hello, long time no write/type. Today was the table tennis tryouts for my school. It felt a lot quicker than it actually was. The tryouts were from 3:15 to 4:30 after school. Apparently I am accepted. I think it’s because I know how to play, I know how to do some cool stuff, and I can win some games. The team manager is my sister’s friend. Now that I am accepted and they said that they approve of me, I have a stack of papers to fill out for various reasons. Transportation, health, tournaments, and just other school related stuff. On Thursday, there is another tryout for those that maybe missed today’s one, and also the people from today’s tryouts have to go as well to either practice more and “coach” the other players. And rate them. To see if they get on the team. It’s so confusing and… more… important than the teams in elementary. I mean it’s like more serious, especially at my school. My school’s table tennis team have been the champions of the provincial or Vancouver-area championships. Real fancy, I know right!! It’s pretty cool. But I feel like I fail. SO, I’m good. Yeah. Alright, I should probably go know because I still have lots of things to do. Well then, see ya!!

onze heures

It has been quite a while. I have been quite busy with the new amount of homework every week. Or everyday. Yeah, that’s more like it. So, my dad has gone to Shanghai for 15 days, and he’s to come back tomorrow. And tomorrow happens to be a vacation day for students as it is Remembrance Day. Oh yeah, that reminds me, at school we had our Remembrance Day ASSEMBLIES, and the ones at my school are long-ish and sort of abrupt, while at my brother’s, he got to say, “I will remember,” while holding his POPPY ART. AIN’T that CUUUTE.

Anyway, that means I can go pick my dad up from the airport with my siblings! However, I still have lots of homework, so I can’t have the whole day waiting and slacking off as I normally do on every other day. It’s getting a little late, but I’m not too worried about the time. I’m more worried about the time that I will sleep at. Recently I noticed that I have more… noticeable eyebags than from grade seven. Which reminds me, I should probably go sleep as it is like 11. It’s not particularly late for other days, but I feel a little tired. Well then, off to bed I will go. See ya!