what is on the other side?

I have neglected to write since the start of the year. I think I was… very distracted. By various things. I still am distracted. Some things that I have been occupied by are school, sports, TV dramas, movies, and music. Upon further analysis, it appears that school work and TV dramas are the main cause of this lack of presence on this blog.

School work. It appears that I always care more than I would like to. Especially for group projects. I hate having to make sure I am not being a burden. This is where I get frustrated; I act nice to those who become a burden to me. Why can’t I stand my ground? Why am I not resolute? Aside from an internal struggle with myself, I think I’m doing pretty well for the past two terms. There is one more term of grade 10. I can’t seem to wrap my head around that concept. I have 2 more years to go. Before I know it… it will be over. I’ll have to begin anew. I have to find a purpose in this society. Haha. That sounds funny. Not entirely sure why though.

It is Spring Break, which explains how I found the time to notice that it has been a while since I last posted. There are two more Spring Breaks after this one. There are many things I am going to have to do. I hope I don’t procrastinate. I have many things to do (does repeating this make me feel like I must complete all my homework?). I have to complete my Science Enrichment Project. I have to begin my English Portfolio. I have to read a book (and figure out what I am going to with it). I have to go to the dentist this week. I have to help a school sports team by being their manager (I’m not complaining, I think it will be fun or interesting). Hopefully, I can finish all that I listed just now.

I don’t know what to do now. I guess I’ll be OK. For now.

2019 New Year’s Resolutions!!

It’s me again! I feel like I should go through last year’s resolutions just for fun. But I’m too lazy to do that. Haha. So I will go straight to the 2019 resolutions!

  1. Arrange work in a more organized way (actually follow a schedule!)
  2. Be more outgoing! Maybe do some work experience this year…
  3. Try to… have more self-awareness?? Also be more aware of others and where I am among them.
  4. Draw, read, and write more often to keep the creative process ongoing.
  5. Put more effort towards friends. (For example: go out with them, help them, be more caring, talk to them more, etc.)
  6. Be more mature (how vague…) and think more before acting. Think about the consequences, how my action can affect others, and how I feel.
  7. Improve handwriting. Printing. I don’t know, just more… good-looking.
  8. Exercise more. Go for runs, practise more table tennis (maybe arrange for more practices??), and do stretches and other exercises more regularly.
  9. Plan ahead. Like… uh… Watch out for deadlines and get things done ahead of time so that I have time to look things over and get things done to the best of my ability.

I feel like number eight might be a joke. But hey. Health.

I should probably write these down so I actually do these and not forget about these after a few days. Hmm. Well, it is late, so goodnight!

todolists

It’s Spring Break! I also happen to have allergies and a cold, so I feel GREAT. I have made a To-Do List for over the Spring Break, so I hope it will be completed by the end. I have three projects, and a few personal objectives on the list. I made the list on Sticky Notes.

I didn’t write in most of February, aside from the first day, so I will recap. Most of February was relatively quiet and normal. On March 2nd and 3rd, it was the BCSSTTC. Which, un-abbreviated, is the British Columbia Secondary School Table Tennis Championships. I represented my school (of course) and we entered all three events available. There was the team event, doubles event, and the singles event. In the team event, my team placed second! In the doubles event, my partner and I placed third! So we received the corresponding medal for our results. A SILVER and a BRONZE! This is only my second time at these championships, so I’m still really excited. I’ll need to practice some more in order to achieve a gold, which I really hope is possible in my high school career. That really makes it sound too intense. Like some nerd.

I should really accomplish some of the tasks on my To-Do List. So, until next time!

worked hard

I have finished a project that I dislike. I presented it today. Why is it February already? I’m not ready for Family Day, Valentine’s Day, and Chinese New Year. I’m not prepared to be social. But I have a feeling that I might like someone. I don’t know though. I don’t even talk to people. Anyway. It’s really late for a school day, and I wanted to slip in a post on the first day of February. O h  y e a h . I have a cold sore, so I may be sick soon. I sneezed in the morning and it was really cold after practice today (after school). ANYWAY, I need to go now, or else I will not function properly tomorrow at school. Until next time then!

work hard

And January is almost over. I have a project that needs to be done by the 30th. And it is a little bit more than halfway done. How unfortunate. I need to work more. On that. But I happen to have two tests coming up. Tomorrow after school, I have table tennis practice. I have many things in which I need to work hard on. Every course I take, every morning (getting up), every question I encounter, school events, having to socialize, and taking the bus as it rains for two weeks outside. Things look bright.

I went skating today for P.E. It was alright, and I skated better today compared to other times from the previous months. I should probably make some notes and study for my tests; I only have two more days, and then on the weekend, I can assemble my Science Fair board (hopefully), and finish the report. Actually, I need to test two more things before that, and then organize my findings, and then complete my report.

I have not had any chances to slow down these days. Full-blown school hit me hard in the pimples. How lovely. And it’s time for dinner. Until next time.

New Years Resolutions 2018

Happy New Year!! I hope 2017 left you with good memories and 2018 coming with many happy events.
As for the resolutions… these are made on the fly.

  1. I would like to improve my art. Like in any way possible.
  2. I would like to help out my parents more often.
  3. Less procrastination as I always say. But never happens.
  4. Dress warmer, so… less sick. And colds.
  5. Be more prepared (related to number 3)
  6. Watch movies. (Purely for my own entertainment.)
  7. Take care of skin. (fall less and lotion??)
  8. Practice and perhaps be more intense about table tennis!

And that is about it! Upcoming events include, my sister graduating, grade 10, my brother going into grade 2, and that’s all I am anticipating. Nothing less, and perhaps even more. I hope 2018 proves to be a better year than 2017, especially in world events.

Happy New Year!

it’s all done and over with

And it is the last day of 2017. I should do that weird review of the year and the resolutions I made at the beginning of the year. I’ll do that now. Yeah.

Resolutions for the year 2017 (italics are my thoughts now):

  1. Try to get my creativity out in different ways (drawing, writing, idk what else).
    I suppose that I have done this. In art class at school, I have to do this and I participated in a art contest for the Public Library. Today is the last day they are showing them at the library.
  2. Focus (whether it be around people, at school, or when playing sports).
    My focus? I think I still need to work on this.
  3. Less use of my phone.
    I don’t think this is going to happen. Maybe when I get more busy. I did stop playing my phone game…
  4. Sleep at more appropriate times.
    For some reason, this is very hard to do. But then again it is the holidays right now, so I don’t really sleep at normal times. During the school year, I sleep.. okay. Health.
  5. Try to keep the desk organized for as long as possible and clean every once in a while.
    I think I only clean when someone is going to vacuum or clean out some closet. But right now there are many pieces of paper from homework and projects.
  6. Organize time for everything; have a plan. 🙂
    What is a plan? I tried, okay?
  7. Spend more time with the child. GABEYY.
    I really don’t want to sometimes. Because he’s starting to mansplain. And he can read a lot of things and understand some things that he didn’t before. how unfortunate that my brother is learning. Hahahaha.

Today, December Thirty-First of Twenty-Seventeen, I am going spend my time at home doing homework. For sure. No distractions. Only this project and studying. Yep. Anyways, I hope 2017 had at least a few great memories you can look back at. Memories are usually what keeps people going. Let’s go 2018!

(I’ll, hopefully, be posting some resolutions tomorrow!)

<2 months

I have very bad time management skills. I have less than 2 months, more like 1 and a half months, to have my Science Fair completed. Which means I have to have completed my experiment, organize it, write a few things, present it on a board, and then present it verbally to my teacher and a few judges. Now if that is not terrifying. And it’s due very damn soon. I am terrible at this. My teacher told my class about the deadlines since September. And we actually got started in October. I actually got my ideas in October, but I haven’t started it until now. Which is not a good idea, as I need time to build something and then test it a couple of times. I haven’t even decided on what I was going to use in my experiments.

At school, the table tennis season has begun, and I am put on the A team! Wow! But there will be some matches to determine the ranking of the team as it is important to know how will be the spare for our team; the spare being the 4th out of the A team. I have a feeling that I will be the spare, mainly because I, for some strange reason, cannot play at school. Maybe it is the floor (I slip a lot because the floor has a lot of other particles), or perhaps I can’t focus under the uncomfortable lighting. That might also be a problem.

I want to write something, but the only things that I have had ideas for and of, are crime related, which makes me uneasy because I can mess up on the really tiny details. For example the law part, the way a crime is carried out, and why. Story structures are important, especially for someone like me who is failing English; my worst mark is English. Surprisingly, I have a great Socials mark: 100.0%!! Wow. I know. I’m not entirely sure of how my teacher marks things, but okaay.

Anyways. I should organize myself before I organize anything else. So, see y’all later! Or the next time I write.

Another Day

There is another 2 days of no school, despite having Friday off as well. I’m planning on going skating with my brother. I went on Thursday for P.E. and surprisingly I did not fall, even though I haven’t skated in about a year. Skating is fun. And I want to bring my brother too. He hasn’t learned how to skate yet.

I think I’m more excited about things I am not doing, and others are going to do things. Like my brother skating. Last time, he was a baby. Which is interesting.

Anyway. I’m just going to slack off. And then go to sleep. Because it is late. So. Yeah. See ya, next time!!

dry eyes

– [What You Like]이기광 –

School is in full swing. Actually not yet. I’ve only had one day of actual work done, so everything else is in the introductory stage. But I’m still confused as to what I’m going to do. I’m not entirely awake when I have class in the morning. I’m not ready to be organized. I don’t even know if I’m going to use my planner properly, but I will in the beginning of the year.

I should probably join something this year, so I don’t just go straight home after school. During table tennis season, I should still have something to do. But I don’t like talking to people I don’t know. My mom says that I should make friends, but although I don’t have many friends, I don’t really want to make friends with the people in my grade. Some of them are really self-centered, loud, insensitive, and social-media obsessed. I could be wring and only see this side at school, but really, I don’t mind, unless they start bothering me. Then again, I can’t go up to people and ask to be friends. Usually, the other person instigates the friendship first. I don’t think I’m a very friendly person.

I had 2 friends from grades 5 to 7, now they are one of those loud, social-circle-is-huge, and self-centered people. But not as intense. But still, we have grown apart. I now have one friend. I’m not saying it’s not enough, but we don’t have many classes in common. We have only 1 out of 8 classes together. Maybe I should try to be more friendly, but the thing is, in class, I don’t talk a lot, and maybe because of that, no one talks to me. I might look terrifying, with a straight face most of the time. Hmm. I don’t really notice if I look scary or not. Hahaha. Anyway. I’m gonna organize a few things over this weekend, so see ya!